Work Sucks, I know.

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Man, it's been a while since I've had a "job", you know? Even a part-time one. I was unemployed for such a long time that I got used to it and honestly really comfortable with it, even though I hated myself for being lazy and relying on help from my family. Now I have to reacquaint myself with a daily routine again, including taking time to draw. I wanted so badly for this year be my "art" year. Learn some new techniques and really hone my abilities, I even wanted to get a booth at a local convention. The way things are going right now, it's not looking very likely.

It feels like I have to choose between either getting financially stable, get married and have countless babies, or dedicate my time to art, get my comic back on track and even start another one. This is something my boyfriend and I "argue" about more than anything. He believes I have the talent to do both, that I make excuses because I don't believe in myself.

He's right, actually. I don't believe in myself. I have to get past that before I can do anything.

Anyway, believe it or not I am still working on FreQuency so keep in eye out for it. ^^; Little bit of news, I will be posting new pages on my website before posting it here from now on. Still gonna post to DA, but it'll be probably a few days later and I'm not posting pages to Tumblr anymore at all, just alerts. Been wanting to do that for a while now, and I decided this year I'm gonna do it. :D

You can check out the FreQuency website right here: frequency.thecomicseries.com
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I understand that hatred in one's self for being unemployed. I'm living it now. I tell myself everyday that I'm home so my daughter would have her father to grow up with, not some kindergarten of random people who doesn't care about her. I tell myself that I'm home so I can finally focus on my art and not be so absorbed in another retail job that cares little about my future. But it still sucks to not work. And it sucks not doing want you want.

Your boyfriend is right. You have the talent to do both, but you have to realize when one is overshadowing the other. I know that any job would trigger me to lose focus on my art, so I need to find a job in art. You need to understand that a child will hold you back on your comic for awhile, but that should never stop you.